Christmas Excitement

You are Mommy's Little Reindeer!

 This is your  First Christmas Jesse. I am buzzing with excitement for this year. I don't know where to start.
It isn't about the gifts or anything else it is just an
overflowing enjoyment that I have with in my heart
that you are here and with me.
 I still have to pinch myself to believe it. My heart is bursting. Precious Baby!
Look At You Being Mommy's Little Reindeer

You are Not so Impressed With the Photoshoot

And Let's Eat Our Hand!

My Tiny Chef

My Tiny Little Chef

My Tiny Chef!

It has been a crazy month. Jesse and I have been from City to City and State to State. We are now home. It is a very surreal feeling. There is still so much to be done. I am swirling in Paperwork. For now I am just enjoying being home with my precious son. My son.. It is still so crazy to hear. The sound rolls of my tongue like a beautiful poem. So difficult to explain how good it feels.

Halloween 2014

One Month Old

Look At Those Beautiful Eyes

You are my precious Gift from God. You are ONE month old.
You fills me up to the brim with happiness.
I am in Awe of your tiny little hands and feet. You My Sweet Prince are such an amazing gift to me. Forever will I cherish You!

It is very exciting having you in my arms and we are here in Iowa Visiting Papa and Grandma. Just one stop on the way home to Virginia. I am looking forward to watching you Grow My Sweet Boy!

Love Mommy!

Epic Photo Fail For Mommy! You are still so Cute!

These Photos were so fun to take.
I know  you didn't much care what we were doing.

Love You!]

Such Cuteness

First Glance

You are Here! You are HERE!!! I am making this quick note to you as I am laying on the pull out couch in the Hospital and you are fast asleep in the bedside bassinet! I am so very Happy! You are Here! Today has brought so many emotions! My little boy!

Jesse Patrick White Born 6:44 A.M.  - 5lbs 14.8OZ - 18.25 Inches Long 

Beautiful, Perfect, So Loved!

Here are some quick glances into your First Glance!

Mommy's So Happy This Is The Fist Time I Held You

Jesse Patrick White 

Your Sweet Little Feet!

5 lbs 14.8 OZ (5lbs 15oz went on your Birth Certificate)

I am so in LOVE!!!

My Sleeping Angel!!!

I can't Kiss You Enough!

Your First  Outfit (Preemie)

Waiting.

It has been a very anxious couple of days here waiting for you. You could be here any day! I am so overwhelmed with emotions it is a complicated thing. I can't wait to see your face. To hold you and rock you. Mommy Can't wait to meet you!

33 Weeks

It has been a few weeks since my Prince. Let me just say it has been hectic. 

When you were 30 weeks Bemo was having difficulties and was airlifted to Denver. You were so very tiny and your cord was having trouble. 

I flew from Virginia to Denver because we were all fearing that you would get here early. 

I was so scared, but, also so very happy to see Bemo and so glad that she was ok. 

After some tests some medicines and a day in the big hospital you stayed in Bemo and my precious baby boy you are still cooking. Yay. 

The decision has been made that I will stay here in Colorado close to Bemo and You baby boy. So that if anything new emerges I am right here. I have interview a few places for work while I am down here. 

I am excited and nervous at the same time. 

You reach 33 weeks Gestation tomorrow. 

Baby boy you stay in there and keep growing! You aren't done yet.
I am excited to meet you so much, but, it's not time yet.
Love, Mommy

Your New Photo! I Love them. 

My School Kids Love you Too!

These were drawn my the kids in the after school program where Mommy Works. They hear me talking about you all the time. I just told them that you are a boy. I am so very Happy that they know what you mean to me already. Someday you will meet them. This little Heart and Triangle is the Adoption Symbol. Someday I will show you these. Love you so Much, Love Mommy. 

You are a Boy!

You Most definitely are a boy! I am so excited. My rainbow you are my little Rainbow! My son!

I am going to have a son! I am excited, so excited! I will just be happy when you get here. No matter what you are.

Hugs, Love Mommy!

23 Weeks

Look at the Cuteness of your little nose!

I am getting More and More excited with every update about you. I can not wait to meet you.
I got these ultrasound photos of you today, I can not even contain my overwhelming excitement.
I'll Admit I cried! Look at your Beautiful face!
I Already LOVE You So Much!
Love Your future Mommy.

It looks as if you are blowing kisses!

May 4th, 2014 Rainbow

This Photo was sent to Me by Bemo and your Aunt.

It brought me tears of joy, for them to know what a Rainbow would mean to me and to show that kind of love towards Me it so amazing. Sweet Baby, I want you to always remember you have been loved by all always. I will never ever be able to repay the gift of you. A child, you are my wish, hope, my dreams, and Bemo and S are giving me the chance to be your Mother! It is so amazing, to think but, also know. They do Love you. Always.

Love, Your Future Mommy!

Your Ultrasound!

Dear Baby,

I can not contain my excitement. Next week will be your 19th week ultrasound and your Gender reveal. BEMO sent me this early ultrasound of you! This is when you were 8 weeks old! Look at you! You look like a little seahorse. So Cute! Until Next Time - Love Mommy

Hello Again Baby

Hello, my sweet little baby. I still don't know if you are to be a boy or a girl. I don't care either way! I have talked to BEMO a few times  My heart will forever be Greatful and Love her for giving me such a Beautiful Gift as you! My heart is Bursting and I am in anticipation of every Doctors visit. Cant wait to see you! Waiting is so hard. Only in the beginning and I am going crazy! Don't worry you'll get used to it. Until Next Time. -Mommy

Dear Future Baby

Hello, Little One. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm going to be your Mommy. I am so overwhelmed at the thought that you are coming. I have just got off the phone with BEMO. (Your birth mother). I can not even imagine how she must be feeling. I can't wait to get to know her. She seems so sweet and I can tell she already loves you. She is already calling you my little and I am so excited to talk to her more soon. My heart is bursting and I am so nervous. Until Next Time, Hugs! -Momma